Cathydarkwood

One of my current minigoals is to loose 5 pounds and weight 145 by halloween. I have been having so much trouble sticking to anything lately. I keep getting really buzy at school. So here is my goals for today.

Taebo for 1 hour.

go to bed by 12:00

start eating lean cusine- add 1-2 cup of raw veggies to the meal. buy 14 meals a week.

Action Goals

1. eliminate sweets from my diet except for diet sodas the night before exams

-I ate 2 deserts this week- both were at the cafeteria. One was chocolate bread pudding and the other was a milk shake.

2. try to eat no more than 4 servings of bread/ rice per day.

so far so good Yay!!!

3. Go to 2 work out classes per week

Failed

4. do 7 20 minute work outs this week

also failed

5. go to bed at 11pm and wake up at 6am (i usually go to be at 2am and wake up at 6 or 7). yes I really need more sleep

Also failed. I went to bed at 2am and woke up at 7am. I need more sleep.

6.eat all the kale, mustard greens,  butternut squash and cellery that I bought this week by Friday

They seem to be multiplying in my fridge.

Overal, I set up many goals and I knew that I was going to fail some of them. However, I was really proud that I ate only 2 deserts this week.

However, I didn’t work out enough. I feel too tired because I’m not getting enough sleep.

I didn’t really work out all this week except I ran the mile on Wed.

So my new goal is for this week is

1.) go to bed by 12:00 every night- that means hw must be done by 10pm- I want this goal to help me feel better in my own body. I will stop acting so stupid because my brain will be well charged.

2.)  work out for 1 hour a day- buy running/ walking around the track. This will help me to loose the 10 pounds that I want gone by the second week of December. It will also give me extra energy and help to prevent me from feeling depressed.

Saturday -Run 1/4 mile walk 1/4 mile repeat for 1 hour

Sunday - repeat

Monday- run 1/2 mile walk 1/2 mile repeat for 1 hour

Tuesday-  repeat

Wednessday- run 1/2 walk 1/4 repeat for 1 hour

Thursday- repeat

Friday- run 3/4 walk 1/2 repeat for 1 hour

Timing has always been a problem with me. I hate working out in the morning because it make me feel sick and angry. I stretch and prep- but I still don’t feel good.  However, if I don’t do it in the morning, I don’t do it at all. So I guess I will try doing it in the morning again. Does anyone have any tips to help me to avoid feeling sick. Maybe its because I didn’t get enough sleep in the past.

I lost more weight since I was last here. I weighed 147 last time i checked- but I may have gain weight from being at school.

Well I am going to try to loose more weight again. My goal is to loose 10 pounds before my boyfriend comes over to visit be on the second week of december. That means that the last time that I weighed myself I had 40 pounds of fat on me. So I want to have only 30 pounds of fat. I’m not going to focus on my total weight anymore- just my fat weight.  This is because I just found out that I lost 10 pounds of muscle weight and 10 pounds of fat, since I have joined this website. I’m using my weight and hieght and waist measurements to calculate my fat percent. I also found out that I have a large frame, so I would like to keep my weight around 130. My ultimate goal is to get my fat percentage down to 18%.  My belly fat is also pretty bad- so I need to cut down on the sweets and carbs.

Action Goals

1. eliminate sweets from my diet except for diet sodas the night before exams

                            - so far so good- I didn’t eat any at the cafe today and I have none at my house

2. try to eat no more than 4 servings of bread/ rice per day.

                          so far so good 

3. Go to 2 work out classes per week

                         so 1 on wed and 1 on thursday

4. do 7 20 minute work outs this week

5. go to bed at 11pm and wake up at 6am (i usually go to be at 2am and wake up at 6 or 7). yes I really need more sleep

eat all the kale, mustard greens,  butternut squash and cellery that I bought this week by Friday

I recently just hit one of my mini goals: to weigh 150 pounds!

My Future Mini goals: 145 (big one), 130 (small), 125 (big one), 119 (big).

I have decieded to move my weight goal from 130 to 125 and now 119. I am currently 5′5.

I am also decieding to train for a 5 K wich I will run this winter.

I still seem to be stuck at 153 pounds. I am having trouble keeping myself from eating.

Anyways I got another motivational book off the shelf (I’ve collected many diet books that my mom gave me). This one is called Bob Greene The Best Life Diet.

In one section of the book he talks about different levels of working out.

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Level-0  you don’t move around much

Level-1 you have a job that keeps you on your feet or you work out 60 to 90 minutes a week

Level-2 you work out 2 times a week at least 90 to 140 times a week

Level 3- You work out 5 times a week so that you are working 150 to 250 minutes and you strength traine 2 times a week with 6 different excersizes

Level 4- you work out 5 times a week 25o to 360 times per week and you strength train 3 times a week

Level 5- you work out every day 360 minutes or more and you strength train 3x a week with 10+ different exercises

Currently I am at level 2. This week I want to aim for level 4.

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I did walk quickly around the block- and I was going to go around again when I stop so that I could head back to go to my martial arts class. However, I could not find the studio so I skipped it.  I found that walking in my work out pants were a lot better- but next time I’m bringing a cheap water bottle with me because its really hot here. I’m glad that I”m getting out of my comfort zon- but I can’t believe that I couldn’t find the place in time. Well, maybe next time.

Tomorrow is my mom’s birthday and I have a dentist appointment. So i’m not sure when I will get to work out.

I think one reason why I’m still over eating is because I don’t feel very fulfilled. I’ve been really lazy lately. My boyfriend has not been talking to me much. So I went to my friends house and invited him to come over for forth of july to see fireworks. He said no. I sorta felt bad after that- he didn’t offer another time to hang out either. I sorta miss him. I noticed that I eat more when I’m lonely or when I’m angry. Eating seems to be the best way to get rid of anger- it really helps to calm me down.

The book also has another activity that might help me.   Write down elements of a fulfilled life and put a + or a - next to it.

Family+

Romance+

Friends -

Career +

community -

spirituality -

physical health+

financial health +

hobbies -

other personal interest

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So Friends, spirituality (which is unusually because i”m usually really spiritual), community, hobbies and other personal interest are all things that I need to work on. So I’m thinking about joining a Unitarian Church on Sunday (i’ve been meaning to go for a while).  However, I need more friends that are my age. I have trouble finding people that I have chemistry with.   I would like to work on lucid dreaming, creating a webcomic (since I’m a newbi I am not holding high exspectations for myself). I am planning  on spending one whole day just working on creating a comic. I will have 12 hours to complete it. I also want to learn programing. I also want to joing ESA (ecological Society Assoc.).

I do seem a lot happier since I’ve been working out. I feel much better. So I just need to increase how much I work out. Maybe work out 1st thing.

I also am successful at getting to bed at a decent time. I now go to bed around midnight instead of 4 am. Yay! Now I just need to cut back on the amount of time on the internet.

I ended up getting home from work at about 7pm. Then I ate dinner and then it rained which killed my plans for going out and walking. Working just takes out so much of your day. I’m working 9 hours days so that I can get every other Friday off.

Since it is late, I am going to play some wii fit.  I also was hungry all of time-I’m having trouble limiting myself.

What is my goal:
1. restrict my calories everyday by -1,000
2. do 20 minutes of work out
3. weight 145 before I see Hiro

What pain has being unfit caused me:
1. my mom and brother annoy me about it a lot
2. don’t look very good when overweight
3. can’t run very far or fast
4. no energy
5. lowers self confidence
6. I look stupider
7. not healthy
8. one more thing about me that I have to fix
9. people respect me less
10. shows that I don’t have strong will power
11. don’t feel comfortable wearing a bathing suit

Measurements
arm: 13′
bust: 39′
wasit: 31.5
neck: 14′
hips: 41′
thighs: 24′

Motivation
My power list
Step one: write down the 3 most important things in your life
1. Hiro
2. my family and friends
3. my career/ money/ learning
Step two: write down two passion reasons for each value.
1. Hiro
PR: I will look more attractive to Hiro = he will love me more
PR: Will feel more confident around him which will improve the relationship
2. my family and friends
PR: one less thing for them to annoy me about
PR: earn more respect
3. my career
PR: more energy
PR: look better so more likely to get hired

Result Driven Questions
1. What joy will I feel when I attain my ultimate body?
I will feel great! I will be so happy. I would feel really proud because I know its a lot of work and that not everyone can do it.

2. How incredible will my life become once I am leaner?
It will become much better. Guys will probably ask me out more. I will take better care of my body and put it first. My family will be nicer to me. Homework will become easier. Meeting and interacting with people will become easier and I will feel more comfortable with other people and become more socail. Overall, my quality of life will improve a lot!

3. What extraordinary things will people say to me when I am leaner?
If I loose all this weight before I go back to school, people may not recognize me! It would be interesting to see how my old ex who dump me would react. The perfect revenge! This sorta makes me want to loose weight as fast as I can so I can surprise everyone back at school.

4. How will I see my body transform with the healthful choices I make?
I will probably start off by loosing 0.5 to 1 kg this week and then once I add work outs, I will loose 2 pounds a week. As I add more workout I will continue to loose 1kg a week.
I will also start taking better care of my body. I will start using hair gloss in the shower so that my hair will be extra nice and glossy.

-What can I do so that my weight loss plans run smoothly?
Start running in the morning. I want to also be in good aerobic shape. I went for a walk today at Craggie Gardens and I was sorta out of breath going to the top. I had no problem going down other than i felt a little dizzy but then again I was carring a 50 pound kid in my arms for about 1/4 of a mile. I should buy and eat more healthy foods too and stay motivated! I wake up at 6:00 go for a quick run/ walk and then get ready at 8.

My motivation for today
I will get lean
reasons to support this
-I have lost weight in the past
-i am determined
-i’m doing motivational stuff
-i have decreases my apatite

What are 10 more important things that I have learned about weight loss
1. eat more fish
2. drink more chicken broth
3. eat more kale
4. eat as little carbs as possible
5. eat dark chocolate
6. limit the amount that i eat
7. motivation is the most important thing
8. I need to start walking/ running in the morning
9. for every 35 miles that I run, I loose 1 pound, for every 70 miles that I walk is equal to one pound
10. isometrics is great

I seems to have hit a hard spot. I gained weight when I went back to college.  I lost all the weight that I gained however, I seemed to be stuck at 152- and I have a hard time sticking to anything. I think its because I spent less time blogging. When I blog I do better.

well, I haven’t accomplished my goals- I got side tracked by school and looking for a job and an apartment. All in one week I found out that I no longer had a summer job and there was no more on campus housing that I could stay on. So it was a tough week. I recently just solved both of those problems- so things are better.

Today I looked at myself in the mirror while I was sitting. I was suprised how fat I looked. I looked much thinner when I’m standing up and when I’m not slouch. I couldn’t believed how dumpy I look and how bad my posture was (especially since I have been trying to be more mindful of it).  I don’t really get how I have had 3 guys tell me that I’m beautiful this year since I am not a “healthy” weight according to the BMI and I have bad posture. Guess I get it from slumping in my seat during class.

So I am going to try and redo some of my goals from last week.

-say grace before a meal

-no more carbs (especially sweets and deserts)

-drink more water- carry water bottle

-emotional scale

The thing is the emotional scale doesn’t really prevent me from overeating when I’m not hungrey. When I’m stress, I feel like its the only way that I can avoid doing work.  When I have to cook my own meals- I tend to eat less.

Okay my next mission is to make my body understand that food is not love. Before I eat a meal, I need to try and guage on a scale how emotionally upset I am. I already ate my breakfast but I think that I want to start taking pictures of what I eat. I think that will help me. To help me become more positive I’m taking st johns wort.

Things that I need to do

- say grace before I eat: breaskfast lunch dinner

-get hungrey before I eat: breakfast lunch dinner

-emotional scale: breakfast lunch dinner

-take pictures of my food: breakfast lunch dinner

-drink 8 glasses of water: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8

-work out for 30 minutes

Well I’ve gained weight this semester. I now weigh 157 instead of 153.  So I gained 4 pounds.

My first mission was to work on saying grace before I ate my meal- but it didn’t work for me. I kept forgetting to do it because I was so busy and I think it would take me a while to get it down.

Did I drink 8 glasses of water?

Did I work out for 30 minutes? Yes

Did I wait until I was truely hungry before I started eating? Yes

If I feel emotional before eating did I stop and go for a walk instead of eating?