4/16/2007
well, I haven’t accomplished my goals- I got side tracked by school and looking for a job and an apartment. All in one week I found out that I no longer had a summer job and there was no more on campus housing that I could stay on. So it was a tough week. I recently just solved both of those problems- so things are better.
Today I looked at myself in the mirror while I was sitting. I was suprised how fat I looked. I looked much thinner when I’m standing up and when I’m not slouch. I couldn’t believed how dumpy I look and how bad my posture was (especially since I have been trying to be more mindful of it). I don’t really get how I have had 3 guys tell me that I’m beautiful this year since I am not a “healthy” weight according to the BMI and I have bad posture. Guess I get it from slumping in my seat during class.
So I am going to try and redo some of my goals from last week.
-say grace before a meal
-no more carbs (especially sweets and deserts)
-drink more water- carry water bottle
-emotional scale
The thing is the emotional scale doesn’t really prevent me from overeating when I’m not hungrey. When I’m stress, I feel like its the only way that I can avoid doing work. When I have to cook my own meals- I tend to eat less.