Cathydarkwood

Okay my next mission is to make my body understand that food is not love. Before I eat a meal, I need to try and guage on a scale how emotionally upset I am. I already ate my breakfast but I think that I want to start taking pictures of what I eat. I think that will help me. To help me become more positive I’m taking st johns wort.

Things that I need to do

- say grace before I eat: breaskfast lunch dinner

-get hungrey before I eat: breakfast lunch dinner

-emotional scale: breakfast lunch dinner

-take pictures of my food: breakfast lunch dinner

-drink 8 glasses of water: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8

-work out for 30 minutes

Well I’ve gained weight this semester. I now weigh 157 instead of 153.  So I gained 4 pounds.

My first mission was to work on saying grace before I ate my meal- but it didn’t work for me. I kept forgetting to do it because I was so busy and I think it would take me a while to get it down.

Did I drink 8 glasses of water?

Did I work out for 30 minutes? Yes

Did I wait until I was truely hungry before I started eating? Yes

If I feel emotional before eating did I stop and go for a walk instead of eating?

I think one of the biggest problems that I have is that i’m never present. I keep thinking about the past and the future. So this Month I will give myself, the being present challenge.Lately I have been depressed and working a 70 hour week with 4 hours of sleep a day. Its the life of a bio major.

Here is some tips off a website that I found.

“Tips On Being Present
You just knew I couldn’t end this post without a list of tips. So here are things that have worked for me … pick and choose the ones that you think will work best for you:

1. When you eat, just eat. The best way to think about being present is this: do just one thing at a time. When you are eating, don’t read or think about something else or iron your clothes (especially if you’re eating something that might splatter on the clothes). Just eat. Pay attention to what you’re eating. Really experience it — the taste, the texture. Do it slowly. Same thing with anything else: washing dishes, taking a shower, driving, working, playing. Don’t do multiple things at once — just do what you’re doing now, and nothing else.
2. Be aware. Another important step is to become more aware of your thoughts. You will inevitably think about the past and future. That’s OK. Just become aware of those thoughts. Awareness will bring change.
3. Be gentle. If you think about the past or future, do not beat yourself up about it! Don’t try to force those thoughts out of your head. Just be aware of them, and gently allow them to leave. Then bring yourself back to the present.
4. Zazen. Ah, you were wondering when Zen Habits would have anything to do with Zen, right? Zazen is basically the center of Zen practice. It’s simply sitting. It’s a form of meditation, but really it’s just sitting. You don’t have to contemplate Zen koans or the meaning of the universe or chant anything. You just sit, and focus on sitting. I haven’t done this much recently, but when I have, it has been very useful practice for me.
5. Exercise. These days, exercise is my zazen. Running is my sitting practice. I run, and try to only run. I focus on my running, on my breathing, on my body, on nothing but the present. It’s great practice.
6. Daily routines. Anything can be your zazen. When you wash dishes, this is practice. This is your meditation. When you walk, focus on walking. Make anything you do become practice.
7. Put up reminders. A reminder on your fridge or computer desktop or on your wall is a good thing. Or use a reminder service to send you a daily email. Whatever it takes to keep your focus on practicing being present.
8. There is no failure. You will mess up, but that’s OK, because it is impossible to mess up. The only thing that matters is that you practice, and over time, if you keep doing it, you will learn to focus on the present more often than you do now. You cannot fail, even if you stop doing it for awhile. Doing it at all is success. Celebrate every little success.
9. Keep practicing. When you get frustrated, just take a deep breath. When you ask yourself, “What should I do now, Self?”, the answer is “keep practicing”.

“I never think of the future. It comes soon enough.” - Albert Einstein”"

from http://zenhabits.net/2008/02/a-simple-guide-to-being-present-for-the-overworked-and-overwhelmed/

In addition to that I’m going to work on eating less and working out more and reading motivational diet books. Hopefull I will update tomorrow.

Ok, I’m back again. I’m finding that it is really hard to stick to this plan, while I am at school, especially when I constantly have exams. Anyways, instead of focusing on how much weight I loose, I am going to focus on new habits. So my goal for today is to record all the food that I eat and to eat under 1500 calories. Thursday I will aim for 1200 calories. Then Friday is 900 calories- because I will be traveling and I don’t like to eat or drink while traveling.  Then I plan on going birding on Saturday- so I should get some walking in. I think that I will also start to wear my pedometer again.

So in review

-1500 Calorie goal today

-1200 calorie goal Thursday

-900 Friday

-Working out Saturday.